Guilty conscience
Have you ever done something that you know that you shouldn’t have done? You become so overwhelmed with guilt. What makes you do it in the first place? If you know that you shouldn’t do it…then why go ahead and do it? Maybe, if you thought about the outcome concerning how it would effect the others…it could possibly refrain you from committing the guilty act.
I recall an old cartoon episode of Tom and Jerry, where Tom has an “angel replica” resting on a shoulder and a “devil replica” stabbing him with the torch on the other. Tom is being persuaded to be a “nicey nice cat” by the angel, while the devil wants some revenge and action from him.
From past experience, I’ve often reaped what I’ve sowed. When I’ve chosen to do something bad, it has always caught up with me in the long run. I recall dumping a guy after coming back from our senior trip. There was no explanation given to him–other than I wanted to break up. Actually, I used him to get back at the person that I truly cared about. When my “make Tony get jealous plan” back-fired, it was time to break up and move on. In my mind, I believe the next relationship that blew up in my face was a clear reflection from my previous mistake. My heart was broke and I deserved it.
We can place blame on being too young, due to lack of experience, etc. I refer to the previous as good excuses for senseless acts. I’m always trying to justify why I did this or that. I’ve watched myself repeat the same mistakes over and over. When I consiously know that I’m doing something that I will later regret—why don’t I stop it from happening? Do you go with the heart or head? The head tells you that it’s not the right thing to do and the heart is saying different. You go with the heart and have a guilty conscience. Need I say more?