As Tonya’s World Turns

I cannot believe that in a few hours….it will be 2008.  It seems that each year passes quicker than the year before.  I guess that is due to the age process.  I recall my father always saying that it seemed like only yesterday that he was changing my diapers.   I feel myself saying the same thing to my son.  The next thing you know, I will be bawling my eyes out when my son reaches adulthood and wants to leave the nest.  Although, I do look forward to becoming a grandparent (not wishing my life away or anything).  I just believe that I would be a better grandmother as opposed to being a mother.  Looking back at all the mistakes that I’ve made, I possibly could turn things around and make them better for the next generation…who knows?

As for wanting to be a better person to  my future grandchildren, I am hoping to be a better christian, mother, friend, daughter, niece, sister, grandchild, employee , etc. for the 2008 year.  I want to live, laugh and love to the fullest degree.   In trying to become a better person, I want to learn to be more patient, tolerant and less judgmental.  Anyone that knows me, knows that I have a tough time trusting anyone.   Hopefully, I could be more trusting in 2008 as well.    I will definitely work on that one.

I am so thankful that I survived another year.  Wishing everyone a wonderful 2008!  Hoping that all your wishes, dreams and resolutions come true for you as well.   

My uncle had a successful surgery and was released from the hospital this afternoon.  The doc said that he needed to lose some weight and start excercising.  It is difficult to try to start an exercise program after the fattening holidays.  I know that I was stuffed more than the actual turkey that sat before me on Christmas day.  I love to eat and everyone in my family seems to enjoy it as well.  It is one of my favorite past times.   

Wooow, I guess I got off track.  As you can tell, I have trouble staying focused on one subject. Believe me, I write the way that I talk.  There are very few people that can keep up with my conversations.  The people closest to me have developed a sense of understanding to my ramblings or they have found a way to ignore it.  

Back to the subject of my uncle, I believe that he is part cat and has nine lives.  He has been through so much in his life; however, he stands strong and presses on.  Out of all my family members, I seem to be closest to him.  He can get on my nerves and get my feathers ruffled faster than you could shake a stick; however, I love him with all my heart.   He could blame the world for his misfortunes, but he willfully takes ownership of his failed marriages, alcoholism, etc. 

After an AA meeting that I attended with him last summer, I let him know that he was the reason that I chose not to drink.  I have drank with the best of them and back in the day, I could put some liquor away.  I just never let myself  let the liquor take control of me.  Upon realization of  being a control freak, I grew up and moved on.  Alcohol was not the solution to any of my problems.  Who needed a drink when you had some food in the pantry? ha  I know that alcoholism is a disease and I’m thankful for not having to suffer from it.  I’ve witnessed the dt’s, convulsions, vomiting….that allowed me to chose a different path. 

Today, my uncle is well.  Hopefully, he will take it one day at a time and get stronger.  We may have to meet up and start an excercise program.  I thank God that I have him in my life.  He is a wonderful man with a heart the size of Texas.   Well, I believe that I’ve rambled on enough for one blog.  Until next time…… 

Thought that I should get back to the blogging scene that I have neglected for the past month.  Yes, I am back in the saddle.  The keyboard represents my reigns.  YIPPIE YI YIPPIE YO….here we go.  This time of year is so hectic for me. Last month, I was busy with the Support the Troops campaign for my son’s school.  My work schedule was crazy as well.  Transportation and the holiday season means heavy workload to say the least.  

 It is hard to believe that today was Christmas.  I hope that everyone had a special day.  I am so thankful for the time that was spent with my family.  My uncle will be having open heart surgery tomorrow at the VA Hospital in Little Rock, AR.  He dropped by with his son, Jon.  He will be in my thoughts and prayers.  I am so thankful that he has turned his life around.  I have seen so many changes in his lifestyle the past few months.  He is a recovering alcoholic with a colored past.  All the damage that he has done has been to himself.  I love him dearly and it is wonderful to see the changes in him. 

Our family spent the day looking at old photo albums and talking about our special memories.  I don’t want to sound mushy or anything, but it felt more memorable and special than any of the past Christmas holidays.  I am very grateful and thankful for my wonderful family and friends.  I am truly blessed.

The day was a blurrrrrrrrr….the phone rang non-stop.  Drivers calling with their headaches of being held up at a customer, not getting unloaded in a timely manner, unable to get to a destination and having to cut through a church yard (leaving the grounds rutted from an 18-wheeler), waiting hours for a trailer to dry due to having to wash it out from all the debris of a 4 drop nursery load, and the list goes on and on.  My occupation should be an overpaid babysitter versus being a truck broker.  Day in and day out…I must listen to whining, moaning, groaning and griping.  Tomorrow, I would love to have one of my drivers call me with an upbeat attitude and have an earful of cheer.  I might actually enjoy picking up the receiver (without dread).  As for today, I am going to turn my home and cell phone off, crawl into bed and wish there was no such thing as a telephone.